Blog 75 - Hey there future students.

Hey there future English 110.01 student! Well, I'm not sure if the topics for the class stay the same, but when I took the class the focus was SciFy. Whether its that or something else, I wasn't exactly in love with this topic. So when I first heard this I wasn't exactly thrilled about it. So, first thing. Whenever you hear about the topic keep an open mind. Don't immediately decide that you're not going to like the focus of the class. I kind of did this and started off taking the class a little rough. I didn't really enjoy it too much. Then, as I watched Buffy the Vampire and learned more I realized it wasn't as bad a class as I made it out to be in my head. So definitely come into the class with an open mind, and try to keep this open mindset even after you hear about the focus of the class and stuff. The blogs seem like a lot of work but they aren't, since you have to write them every day. They actually are nice, they help you keep up with writing a little bit everyday. Its good for your writing skills, and with the commenting you get to know your classmates pretty well. When you're writing your papers make sure people read them and edit them, and give you feedback. Also, go to your teacher to seek feedback and editing, its good to improve your writing without just staring at it alone forever. Anyways, its a nice relaxing class with a chill environment, and it definetly helped me a lot with my writing. Go into it with an open mind and you'll learn a lot!

Blog 74 - My views on SciFy, now.

So before this class I thought SciFy was something I would never really like or be able to enjoy the least bit compared to what I usually watch and enjoy. The term SciFy always brought things like Star Trek or Star Wars to mind, and i've never really liked those types of shows, and so its just seemed like something I would never go near. Then we did the unit and watched stuff like Buffy the Vampire, and I still wasn't very changed. Buffy was a little better than my original image, but not enough to get me anywhere near becoming a SciFy junkie or anything. Then, during the last couple days we watched some Battlestar Galactica and I didn't really love that either. But then, we watched Caprica, and I kind of liked it. It really didn't seem like Caprica was much of a SciFy show, it seemed like a pretty normal, whatever kind of show, I liked it! After this class, I probabbly won't start watching a lot of SciFy shows or anything but I have somewhat changed my outlook on SciFy. I might give some of the shows that fit under this genre a chance, like i'll be more likely to try watching them after this class. I don't think i'll go as far as watching any star trek of firefly or anything, but a show like Buffy the Vampire Slayer or Caprica I would give a chance. I've always liked the show Twilight Zone, I don't know how much SciFy that is but i've always found it kind of eerie and interesting, so i'll still watch that and maybe give some other shows a chance. Anyways, time to get back to studying for finals, later!

Blog 73 - Last one about whatever!

Okay so this is my last blog about whatever but i'm trying to rewrite my commonplace paper so I really need some feedback so here's part of it, tell me what you think so far! This is like the beginning of it:

It’s 2:45 pm and the bus has finally made it back to our houses. I get off one stop before Ashley, “I’ll call you in a second,” I yell to her as I hurry off the bus to go munch on in the kitchen. I don’t hear her response but its probably one of the usual ones. “Okay, I have to feed my brother,” or “Okay but I have to pick my brother up first.”

            Everyday after school, I walk into my house and I can hear my mom talking. I go into the kitchen and eat something with her and we talk about my day. I tell her about something weird that happened, and then maybe we watch an episode of Gilmore Girls, or go get some groceries or something. Even after my mom began working in my later years of high school, she got home fairly early. I would only be home an hour or two before she would make her entrance, usually with a couple chocolate Busken Bakery muffins.

            Down the street from me was Ashley, and her arrival home was fairly different than mine. She walked into an empty house, being greeted by the security system that wanted to be silenced. She would go to the kitchen and get some Oreo’s, or make a bowl of spaghetti. She would then follow by doing something with the word “brother” in it. Pick up her brother from the bus stop, tutor her brother, feed her brother, dress her brother, one of the many my mom does for me.

Blog 72 - yay last class, excited for next quarter!

So today was the last day of classes for this quarter, I mean I guess we still have finals and all but i'm really excited for next quarter, it's going to be fun! Well I mean not fun but definetly a lot easier than this quarter since I don't have honors chemistry, yay! I do actually blog a lot about chemistry, it's a little bit ridiculous, its just been consuming my life so I guess its prevalance on my blogs is proportional to how popular it is in my life too. That sounded really lame, but its over. Anyways, I decided i'm actually going to stay in this weekend. Well tonight atleast, like really stay in and not go out at all. I'm chilling on the futon at the moment, watching Polar Express! It's on ABC Family right now, such a cute movie, love it! Umm, we went grocery shopping and got some bread and stuff so I made a nutella and peanut butter sandwhich, so yummy! It's like a reese cup with bread, it would be better if we had a toaster. Speaking of toasters, me and my friends have been having some bad luck with houses, we'd be ready to go look at a house and a few days before we'd get a call saying it just got signed! So we lost two of our dreamhouses, but today we finally got to see one we really liked that wasn't signed yet and it was so cute! The hardwood floors were gorgeous and there were rooms from the basement to the attic so it was like well spaced out, it was great! I think were going to sign the lease for that house on monday if its still available by then, knowing our luck it might not be but we have our fingers crossed! That's all for now, later!

Blog 71 - caprica.

Hey everyone, so today was our last day of class. That means exam week is even closer, eek! Anyways, we watched Caprica in class today, the prequel to Battlestar Galactica. It was intersting, it didn't really seem like a SciFy show, it was kind of weird. Like, it was just a well off family with a teenager that was, well just a teenager. She was being rebellious like any other teenager. But I guess she was actually part of something that was considered a terrorist organization? I don't really totally get it yet since we didn't finish watching it but it seems like she's actually really smart and in this, but there was a suicide bomber, who was her friend. I think they're like all conspirators because they all believe in god and the rest of their world doesn't, which is weird for us of course so I guess we would side with the conspirators. Some of the technology in the show was really cool though, like the tennis court with the sensors and that little robot thing that does everything, and seems to just be everywhere all the time. Also, the fact that they could open little sheets of paper that are actually kind of like computers? So cool, and that house was gorgeous. I think those are the prettiest houses, the ones with entire walls that are just windows and are set right next to a huge lake. So pretty. Umm but yeah I kind of like this show better than Battlestar Galactica, its kind of interesting. I thought it was a little morbid that he went to a virtual world and saw his dead daughter, kind of, but it was cool. Well thats all, later!

Blog 70 - the grinch!

It's december 1st, so that means ABC Family is starting their 25 Days of Christmas! Yay! Today it's How the Grinch Stole Christmas, so we're watching that while we look at places to live next year. We made like 2 appointments for Sunday so hopefully one of those works out. But yeah, I know I repeatedly say this in blogs but i'm really excited for winter break! Watching the Grinch is making me even more excited! Our room is such a mess, and I have finals to study for and houses to look at and homework and a lab, but i'm watching the Grinch. Screw being responsible, the Grinch trumps all. It was snowing this morning! It was pretty freaking exciting to wake up and look out the window and see snow! I've been sick so when I tried to call my mom this morning to tell her it was snowing, because I was so excited I felt the need to text everyone and then call my mom, I couldn't talk, I like lost my voice. So I tried to get coffee this morning and I was like pointing at stuff, it was great. I got soup with my friends for dinner so hopefully i'll wake up tomorrow and my voice will magically be back. That would be great but its so not happening. When we were at marketplace today I got the little thing of Coldstone and its delicious! I love Coldstone, it's seriously the yummiest stuff ever. Along with Jenny's, I think that's how you spell it? The ice cream place that's kind of far away. My roommate got some of it and it's so yummy! But yeah that's all for today, later everyone!

blog 69 - its raining its pouring.

So I don't really mind rain at all, when it's raining the only thing I ever HAVE to have is my rainboots. I hate getting my shoes soaked because a, my feet get cold, and b, it ruins them. Like today I had boots on, sad. The rain got them all gross, I mean I waterproofed them so hopefully they're okay. But yeah, it wasn't raining this morning so I didn't have them on, and then it started raining and my shoes got all gross. So me and my friend lunch-ed at Marketplace and then I stopped at my dorm and picked up my rainboots, and then I felt complete. So we finished our group memo a little early so I left english a little early. One of the girls in our hall has all of the seasons of Gilmore Girls, and me and one of my roommates are sick, so we're watching season 4! I love Gilmore Girls, I think my favorite part of the series is when she was dating Jess. Jess is definitely the cutest out of Dean, Jess, and Logan. I got really excited when she ran into him a lot later into the series, I can't remember the season but i'm pretty sure she's dating Logan by then. Anyways, we started with the episode when Rory and Lorelei get back from backpacking in Europe and she's about to go to school. I used to watch these all the time with my mom, we love this show! Watching it kind of makes me miss my mom. But hey, only a little longer until winter break, yay! I'm so pumped to go home, but that means I need to study for finals and finish revising these papers so that's all for today, later!

Blog 68 - i miss baking.

Me and my friends have lots of swipes to burn, so today we went to Marketplace and went grocery shopping with our swipes! We got cookies, coldstone, crackers and a couple frozen dinners. I miss grocery stores a lot so this will have to do. When I was home I went and got a batch of the break and bake mint chocolate chip cookies that only come out for christmas. I remember last christmas me and my friend got them, and seriously they're amazing. So we went back for more and after the 3rd Kroger's and lots of web searching found that they're limited edition and only come out for the holiday's. The night I bought them I made 6 of them and they all burned. We decided it was probably because I tried eating the cookies without her. So she was over the next day and we made them, they were delicious. All this talk about cookies makes me miss baking a lot. I miss all the recipe books, so i'm really excited for break! Classes are totally over and so we have nothing that we're actually responsible for getting done, yay! I can do whatever for all of break, now I just have to get through finals week, great. I'm excited to bake and see everyone and get adequate sleep, kind of. Well, get sleep that isn't cut short because of late night studying and homework. Well anyways, thats all i'm going to blog about today. I now need to go work on my papers and do some homework and studying for classes so, later!

Blog 67 - Break is over. sad.

So break is officially over, but hey christmas break isn't that far away, yay! My roomies and I are again listening to Christmas music, we were watch Disney earlier. Good luck Charlie was on, love that show!  I'm really tired, and I seriously want to go to bed, so I'm going to share some of the ARP paper that i'm revising at the moment. Its over Buffy the Vampire and how it shows the dynamics of teen, parent relationships. These are my first two introductory paragraphs, which are actually still under revision: 

Buffy is a sixteen years old. She is the typical teenage girl: she is a cheerleader, and she is quite outgoing. She has two great best friends, she does well-enough in school, and, of course, she just wants to fit in and be loved.

Sadly, Buffy can’t easily fit in, or embrace her extroverted personality and have fun with her friends often. She is the Chosen One: A vampire slayer. The citizens of her city are at risk of death unless Buffy continues to constantly train, learn, and patrol for vampires and other hostile creatures.            She doesn’t find this fair at all though, which is evident in her often-pouty faces and occasional lies to Giles. She understands somewhat that she has to do this, but she is a teenager, after all, and wants to have a fun, normal life like any other teenage girl. 

So thats most of my introduction to my paper, i'm trying to establish a background for Buffy. Anyways, that’s all for today, later!

Blog 66 - awhh, tomorrow's sunday.

I really don't like Sunday's. It's the day before a long week of classes and work, hate it. I have homework I should probably start, but instead I decided to watch Click, it's on TV right now. It's such a cute movie, but I kind of want to watch a christmas movie. Maybe after this i'll go find out copy of Beauty and the Beast Enchanted Christmas. It's such a cute movie! I like it a lot better than the regular Beauty and the Beast. Umm as usual, I have no clue what to blog about, I just want to get this over with. So i'm just going to ramble for a little while. I'm really scared about finals week, its going to be stressful. I'm scared about studying, I really don't know what to study for chemistry since clearly I study the wrong stuff every time. Anyways, i'm watching a movie now and I really want to be done with this so I can just watch and not have to do this. I got lots of fun stuff for black friday, I may have blogged about this already but this stuff includes a copy of The Hangover! Also PS. I love you, one of my favorite love-y movies. I love it, seriously, so cute. Like I understand why guys don't like The Notebook, even though I think it's a great movie, but PS. I love you, so good. I just love Gerard Butler! I had a fever all day today, i'm guessing I caught at mirror lake considering how easy it is to get a cold when you're running around soaking wet in freezing weather, so i've been in bed most of today, which sucked. To end my post, what do you call a pretty girl on Michigan's campus? A visitor. Yay Bucks!

Blog 65 - friiiiday !

Ahhh I need to get these blogs done. Well, now that this break is almost over i'm dying for winter break. Mainly because that means finals are over too, and I dont actually have any homework or anything hanging over my head! Plus its snowy outside, and theres christmas lights, music, and cookies galore. I can't wait! So now I just need to get through these next two weeks. I have the papers to edit for english and then a chemistry final, eek, and a math final. It's going to be a long week. So i'm doing this blog and watching Enchanted on TV, I'm probably going to go meet up with some friends later. I have no clue what to blog about. So I'm really excited about Tangled, it looks like such a cute movie. I feel lame but I really want to go watch it. I've heard that Disney isn't going to make any more princess movies for a while, I don't know if it's a rumor, I really hope it is, but if not thats sad! I've heard its because they never focus on males and so they want to try and do that, so I guess Tangled will be the last one for a while, how sad. So a christmas commercial is playing right now and it's making me even more excited for christmas! It's one of the funny Target ones, I love target. Me and my friend were getting break and bake cookies and around christmas time Toll House comes out with their mint chocolate chip ones, and then they like pull them out after chrimtmas, its sad. They're delicious. Anyways, that's all for now, later!

Blog 64 - Hey there.

So I forgot to blog yesterday, I have no clue why we have to blog on thanksgiving day, how is anyone supposed to remember to do that. Well anyways, thanksgiving was awesome! We made yummy stuffing and went to a thanksgiving dinner at a family friend's place. It was a lot of fun seeing everyone again, I really missed people. Umm i've been black friday shopping forever and I have a massive headache now and I really just want to go to bed, me and my mom went to old navy at like one, the line literally did, not just wrap around the store, but weave back and forth through the store. I think we waited in line for more than an hour, or maybe even two, but seriously, a long time. I think it was worth it but my mom begs to differ, it was fun though, i've missed my mom. We got lots of pajamas and some super fuzzy socks! Then I definetly set my alarm for like 7:30 after I got home at 4, and I totally slept through it, but i still got some semi good deals at the mall. It was a nice day, but my mom and I have definitely been popping Advil for the sleepless shopping day. Tonight i'm definitely relaxing with some food and movies. Maybe some chocolate covered raisins too, i've missed those. I got a copy of the Hangover from Target, even though I went pretty late, which I was pretty excited about, I think me and my friends are going to watch that tonight. So yeah, that’s all for this blog, now I need to do today’s blog.

Blog 63 - HOME :)

Okay, so i'm home now and i'm really tired and happy to be home and I really don't feel like blogging at all. I have no clue what to talk about. Well, i'm really bummed thinking about how much stuff I have to get done next week, its going to be one hell of a stressful week, oh boy. I really don't want next week to come any time soon. I'm really excited about all the driving, eating and shopping, and showering without shoes that i'm going to be doing for the next couple days! What should I blog about, hmm. The mirror lake jump was SO MUCH FUN! I think I jumped like 3 times, it seriously was probably one of the best nights yet. This morning I was trying to get a hold of my friend to give stuff back to her and the call wasn't going through. I then found out that someone had dropped her jacket that had her phone, camera, and coach wristlet in it, into the lake! Thankfully the pictures from mirror lake survived, but that still doesn't make up for the hundreds of dollars of replacement. It was really fun though. Then when we got back my dorm was making grilled cheese and hot chocolate for everyone, the night just got better and better! Theres nothing better than grilled cheese after a freezing dip into a lake. Traffic trying to get home today was ridiculous, like it took way too long to get home. But my friend was driving so I just took a nap in the backseat, it was nice. Anyways, that's all for today, later!

Blog 62 - finalllly time for break!

Today is just a fabulous day! I have a couple classes, I get back and do nothing, then its mirror lake time! Then tomorrow morning I go home, i'm so excited to see everyone and go shopping! So today I had a HChemistry lab, at 8:30 am the day after our killer midterm. Sometimes I feel like the only work and homework I ever do is for HChemistry. I haven't been to math lecture, or recitation in a while. It's sad how much I work I do for honors chem. Anyways, after that I, once again, skipped math recitation and actually got breakfast for the first time in a while. I had a toasted bagel! As I was eating it I realized how much I've missed like toasting break and bagels before I eat them, I miss my toaster. Then I went back to my dorm and cleaned, kind of. More like moved the mess into a smaller area, and just relaxed for a little while, rare. Then I came to this class. It's so nice out! It's hard to believe that it's already late November! But I mean i'm not complaining, I love it! I'm really excited to bake when I get home, I miss the kitchen with readily available ingredients, and large counter space. Me and my roomies have been listening to lots of christmas music lately, I think i'm going to bring back christmas lights and stuff to put up, ahh i'm excited! Well anyways, that's all for today. Later!

Blog 61 - sometimes professors are jerks.

Like really, I think my chemistry professor is making the class hard just because he can. Today, in lecture, a few hours before our midterm he decides to tell us that he took ALL of the multiple choice questions off of our midterm because he doesn't like multiple choice questions. Why he didn't realize this a day or two, or ten before the midterm so he could tell us the whole test was multiple choice, I don't know. Then, we have a practice midterm online, and he refuses to put up an answer key believing that, despite the fact that it's an honors class and most students in it are motivated, we would stare at the answers rather than trying the problems. Along with that, the practice midterm was normal freshman-ish chemistry. Like, more complicated problems than the ones in 122 but not impossible. Normal things like Pvnrt, and other gas law concepts and specific heat concepts. Of course though, our exam consists of only 5 short answer questions, which span over 9 pages (something is already wrong with this picture), where half of the questions are over things that were barely discussed or dismissed by the 4 chapters of the book we had to know. I understand where my professor is coming from. He believes strongly, very strongly in learning, like expanding of knowledge, and does not care one bit about grades. He doesn't realize that though we do want to learn, seeing that we took an honors class, grades are a little bit important, you know. Grad school's, medical school's sometimes seem to care less about whether you learned a ton of new information and got a B in an honors class. They would probably be happier with the A you receive in a regular chemistry class. It's sad that you have to give up the pursuit of knowledge for the sake of your long term career goals. I feel like i've blogged about this before, but I feel really strongly about this again, especially after this midterm. But yeah, i'm done ranting. Haha, thanks for listening!
grades vs, profession

Blog 60 - i hate sundays. especially when they're sunday's before a midterm

So tomorrow is my chemistry midterm, and I don't know how to feel about it. The material isn't super difficult, but that means everyone will do pretty decent and the curve wont be that great, so I don't know how to feel about it. So i'm going to keep studying for that and share a little bit more of my commonplace paper, after I talk about how excited I am to go home. I seriously miss my family so much sometimes, and this is one of those times. I really just miss my mom and everyone. What else, i'm really excited for tomorrow to be over, and for it to be tuesday for the mirror lake jump! Me and my friends are going to write on our stomach's and jump in, i'm pumped! Apparently to get back into the dorms you have to wait to get hosed down. But I heard my dorm is making everyone grilled cheese which sounds yummy! Then, go out after that and go home the next day, what a fabulous weekend. So yeah, anyways, here's some more of my common place paper. This is one of my middle paragraphs on why it is bad for the eldest child to be a parent: 

The eldest child would now spend a significant amount of time looking out for the younger sibling, would feed them, dress them well, help them fit in and feel loved. In this way, all the responsibilities that parents are meant to take on to raise their children are instead, taken on by their eldest child. Dr. Bartell speaks about how this can cause the elder sibling to “(worry) about younger siblings to an extreme,” which can be unhealthy.

SATURDAY !

So it's saturday! My birthday's coming up so my roomies made me birthday cookies today, I love them! I'll finally be 18, thank god. My friends make so much fun of me for being young, no longer can anyone call me jailbait or any other, you're not 18 kind of name. Today was a pretty chill day, I tried to get up early so I could do some studying and homework. I definitely need to be up early tomorrow too so I can study! So, it's time to go out, and I don't know what to write about, so i'll share some more of my commonplace paper! So here's the actual intro to my paper, the one thats supposed to hook you and catch your attention. Do you guys think it works? It's one of those intro's where you set up hypothetical situations. I did these a lot for papers in high school.

            Mom stops by at home and shoves a granola bar down her throat as she leaves to her second job: the night shift at the clothing factory downtown. Max, her eldest son, feeds an off-brand baby food to his younger brother Tyler. As he spoons food into Tyler’s mouth, he  attempts to catch up on three chapters of History reading.

At the same time, Max’s friend Liz is living in a similar situation. Liz’s mom’s flight from Boston is landing in about two hours, and her father has, once again, been paged to the ER. Liz is at home, with her two year old brother and their Nanny. After having grown up with a busy mother and a father finishing his residency, she feels obliged to pay attention to her younger brother. She wants to give him the love and attention she never received.

Blog 58 - FRIDAY!

Yay! It's friday! So i have a honors chemistry midterm on monday, but i'm going out tonight anyways, even though I should probabbly stay in and get some reading and studying done. Maybe i'll stay in tomorrow! Not likely but maybe, I really really should. I don't know what to blog about today, and I really need to do my homework. So, i'm going to share some of my commonplace paper. Here's a part of my introduction, and my thesis. Even though there are a variety of family structures, parents are always a foundation to these families. A parent is someone who raises a child. If that parent cannot find the time to do this, can they even call the child their own? A parent is a mother, a father, a guardian, protector, but can be none of these to a child unless they can take part in raising and nurturing the child.

            At a young age, a child must receive abundant love and care to grow into a successful, happy teen and adult. In these circumstances where parents do not have the time to provide love and care, the child grows up independently. If this child eventually has a sibling, he or she feels obligated that it is his or her job to raise the younger sibling. When the eldest child must step up to raise a younger sibling it impacts his or her life physically, socially, and emotionally.

            So yah, the last sentence was my thesis statement, and that is a piece of my paper. Time to get back to chemistry for a little while so see you later!

BG - its an interesting show.

So today we watched BG and it was really a lot different than any show i've ever watched, in my life. First off, shes a robot and she makes out with and has sex with people? It's just so weird! And then, all of a sudden she's with that other ladies baby and she's just looking at it and playing with it when all of a sudden she just snaps its neck? I was just like, why. I mean they pretty much kill everyone anyways, why did she have to snap the babies neck and freak out the mother early. She could have let the mother and the baby spend a few more days together rather than rob the mother of her last few days with her child. It really bothers me that it happened like that. It's just a baby. Then all of a sudden they're at war and there's these crazy missiles that follow the path of the jets. Thats weird, the missiles like don't shoot in a straight line, they follow a path. It was ridiculous how many missiles were shot and how perfectly they hit every target. I don't understand how that happens. The show has some very interesting relationships, and charecters. There's the girl who seems to be very feisty and has a big temper, she's the one that ends up in jail early. Then theres also the couple that isn't supposed to be together, they seem to get along very well. The leader always seems to be very calm which is good. He seems very controlled, and so does the lady cabinet member who's leadership skills someone doubts initially. The person I don't really understand was the one who was burning the lady's picture. He seems sour, and cynical, but maybe has a soft side that was hurt by her, he's confusing. Overall the show is better than I thought it would be!

Blog 56 - just a wednesday

So nothing too exciting happened today, its just a regular wednesday and I have lots of homework to get done. When we were studying yesterday we were all listening to Pandora and my friend was like, type in Perry Como. Yup, I didn't know who Mr. Como was, and then I found out he sings chrismas music, so Christmas time is here started playing and we all got really excited for Christmas! I know its not even thanksgiving yet but I just love the holidays! It's so much fun, it's just a great time. So only a few more days until break and MIRROR LAKE! yay! I hear someone yelling in the hall because someone else doesn't have class thursday or friday, that is pretty crazy I guess. I'm kinda hungry, so we were eating at Fresh today, its so much better than the places on south. North gets Fresh, and Burritos, and Noodles is close to them too! jealous. I guess marketplace is pretty awesome but yah, Fresh is yummy. I really don't know what else to talk about right now. I'm kind of craving like a christmas movie marathon, that would be a lot of fun! I really want to bake something too. I love baking, I miss doing it. It was my sisters birthday today, i'm kind of sad i'm not there! That means its almost mine too yay! If only I didn't have a midterm and a lab to do on my birthday. What else is new, I cleaned my room and so did the roomie that lives on the same side as me so we're very proud of how clean our side is, its really clean. That's all for today, later!

Blog 55 - its tuesday.

Tuesday's are my worst days of the week, in close competition to Sunday. I have lab on tuesday's at 8:30 am, and last weeks lab report is due at this lab. So, of course, being an avid procrastinator, I start, and finish my lab on Monday's. On occasion I start on sunday but usually get little to nothing done. So I get little to no sleep on Mondays and then have to do a lab early the next morning, I hate it. Then, we get to lab and 15 minutes in my TA begins to tell us about the bomb threat that just went into action for three buildings, one of which was adjoined to the one we were doing our lab in. Though out building, Celeste, wasn't closed and evacuated right away, it did close soon after. We though, in the midst of this danger, had to stay and complete our lab in celeste. We continued to take temperature readings every 30 seconds while the building was getting closed. After the lab we couldn't even leave out the door, we had to weave our way through staircases and connections to get to another building to leave. It was just great. Other than it being a crappy tuesday, I don't have a lab to do tonight! I think i'll watch some TV, and maybe do some english homework! Start working on my ARP revision, and study for math or something. Maybe i’ll study for chemistry, get a head start and make the weekend study load lighter. We’ll see, anyways that’s 250 so later!

Blog 54 - black friday!

So along with being excited for thanksgiving, yummy food and friends and family and all of those lovely, wonderful things, I'm kind of really excited for Black Friday! Sometimes I wonder, since a lot of people expect stores to have their best deals ever this day, do they rip you off and have sales that aren't really the best sales ever. Seriously, since black friday is so hyped up they really don't need amazing deals, people are going to shop just because its black friday. I feel like there's probably better deals after Christmas. But really, if they didn't have somewhat good deals people would probably catch on. The best deals are definitely on electronics though, I really want a new camera so maybe i'll wake up super early this year for a  camera, and if i decide sleep is too valuable i'll just hit up Victoria's Secret first. I really miss just hopping in your car and driving to the mall whenever. So yah, black friday will be fabulous. Hmm, what else, well I really need to start working on this commonplace paper since I don't actually even have a legitimate draft yet. I had a math midterm today, it was okay, definitely somewhat harder than the last one but whatever. I'm tired, a nap seriously sounds amazing right now. Me and my roomies cleaned our room on Friday and now its just as messy as it was on Friday all over again, this is what we get for cleaning on a friday before game day. Sundays are definitely cleaning days from now on. Anyways, i'm at 250 so talk to you later!

Blog 53 - you're style?

So I need to get two blogs done today since I didn't blog last night because I decided to wait till yesterday to study for my math midterm that was today, and so I stayed up super late and just skipped blogging and went to bed. I'm really craving some goldfish, and I need to do my nails. So many things so little time! I'm just going to blog about some of my favorite things to wear today. I love wearing prints. Cheetah is probabbly one of my favorites. I used to be unhealthily obsessed with zebra but now i've found a liking for cheetah too. I love heart prints, and stripes. I love the color pink; don't really love wearing straight up pink like a pink dress or anything but I love pink accents. Like, I think pink and cheetah go together really well, or a bright pink purse. I remember I work at calvin klein, and i'd been eyeing this bold pink purse for the longest time, I finally bought it and brought it home and left it on my bed. So my mom is a pretty traditional classy person. She prefers blacks, whites, and beiges, and doesn't understand why anyone wouldn't. So she freaked when she saw it, she just didn't get why i'd want such a bright colored purse. Sometimes I don't understand my style preferences though because I feel like people usually fall into one type of style. I love bright bold colors, like the coach poppy collection. But I also really like Fossil crossbody's and wristlets. Sometimes when i'm carrying a bold purse like that, and wearing a, hmm, a cheetah cardigan with a tank and jeans, with some boots, I seriously feel uncomfortable walking into Fossil. I feel like i'm being judged even though I dress that way sometimes too. Sometimes I feel like I need to really figure out which style I like best and stick too it, but do you really have to? Can you switch between hipster with skinny's and a cross-body bag, to prep with a cheetah cardigan and pumps, to bohemian with a floral dress and moccasins, to maybe even slightly punk with a billabong hoodie and bright vans, and it just be okay?

Blog 52 - whatev's.

So the game today was a lot of fun! We won, awesome, and then we got dinner, I feel like I should probably take a nap before I go out again but it's probably not going to happen. I need to get some homework done; a little more important than napping. So yeah, i'm not really sure what to write about today, i'm just really tired and I need some energy. Hmm, well me and my roommates are all pretty messy, and we really don't mind the room being fairly messy all the time. I have a quad so there's a lot of room, but you really usually can't see the carpet on either side of the room because its covered in stuff, and the middle area is a mess of chairs, food, dirty dishes, movies, and usually other peoples stuff and our shoes, its just messy. So friday we had a big cleaning session, we cleaned our sides and vacuumed and swept and everything! It was clean for a while. Not. Cleaning day's should definitely be Sunday's and not Friday's. But whatever, it was exciting for a day. Now we just need to get the massive amount of halloween decorations off of the door and we'll be okay. I had noodles and company for dinner and remembered how amazingly delicious it is. I've missed it a lot. We had one like 10 minutes away from us at home and I used to go all the time after school and stuff, and here its like a super long walk away, but we just went after the game and it was yummy. I always get the same thing, maybe a little lame I know, I just love it! Japanese Pan Noodles, best dish they have, ever. Anyways, thats it for 250 words, so talk to you all later!

Blog 51 - Friday!

Yay it's finally friday! Yesterday, I definitely thought it was like sunday, and then every couple minutes I would remember that it's actually thursday and tomorrow is FRIDAY! I seriously love fridays, like the week kind of just goes by, getting closer to friday. I've started making plans with my high school friends, for when we all go home over thanksgiving break so i'm just really excited for thanksgiving to see my friends and my parents! So lately a lot of my guy friends have been playing cod, way too much, because a new one came out? And I hang out with them a lot, and so i'm kind of bored. So I was like, okay I wanna learn how to play, and they were like if you can play this well you will be the perfect woman. So I was like sweet, so before I go out tonight I think i'll learn how to play that! What else is new, umm this sounds really lame and gossip-y but Justin Bieber has a girlfriend who's apparently 16, but I swear she's at least like 18, anything but 16. I know this song is getting kind of old but I still really like Secrets - One Republic, i'm listening to it right now and it's just such a great song. You know what else is great? Apologize - One Republic. One Republic just has great music, all the time. It's always good. So i'm still really excited its friday and I dont know what else to write about, so i'm just going to keep rambling until I hit 250 words. I think i’m there so peace!

Blog 50 - Fabulous day off :)

So I chilled out and watched movies and ate with my roomies. We had a harry potter marathon, and then grocery shopped a little bit and got some Panera. So I'm finishing my homework now, at 3 am. Now I have to write this blog that i'm really not too thrilled to do right now, I really just want to go to bed, so i'm going to share a part of a draft for a satire I have to write:

Let’s think about racism for a second; the main way people first could differentiate others enough to be racist was by skin color. They would use the phrases “white people” and “colored people.” Not only is discrimination by skin color bad for the minority, it can often hurt the majority. Through affirmative action policies, the majority is often discriminated. Skin color is still a large factor in racism, and discrimination today. There is an easy fix to this problem, to avoid tears and stressful policies.

         We can dye ourselves.

         Every citizen of the world, I am sure, has a favorite color, or at least a color that they find to be bearable. They could then choose this color, and soon after, become this color. They can go weekly to a “dying clinic” and become a color of choice. This method would cause much less pain to the heart and body than all the tension, and stress put out by people to suppress racism. It would begin to eradicate one way in which humans deviate from living harmoniously.

Blog 49 - today?

We don't have class tomorrow, so today I did a lot of sleeping and disney channel watching, it was great. I'm staying in tonight too, i'm just super burned out of classes and homework. We just ordered insomnia cookies so i'm pretty excited for those, i've heard they take forever to get here though, which is a bummer. We're watching law abiding citizen, the best part of this movie is probabbly just the fact that gerard butler is in it, I love him! PS I love you, 300, bounty hunter, every movie he's in is just great. But this movie not only has gerard butler, but jamie foxx too!? Hmm, what else happened today, it was beautiful out again today! Its been a great week for weather, and then watch, this weekend when everyone seriously wants it to be nice and warm its going to be freezing. Waiting for these cookies is making me seriously hungry, I might fill myself up with nutella before they even get here. I'm really excited about no classes tomorrow, i'll be doing a lot more sleeping and tv watching tomorrow too. I really need to get my curriculum proposal done though, haven't gotten very far on that yet. When we were watching The Suite Life on Deck today, I totally saw the parallel between London Tipton and Paris Hilton, I don't know why I didn't see this earlier. London, Paris...the hotel chains, loaded fathers. They totally modeled her off of Paris! It totally makes sense now. But yah thats all for today, later!

Blog 48 - Its gorgeous out!

So I assumed it was cold this morning and headed out in a fuzzy jacket and it was alright, after class I put it on to head back out and realized how great the weather was, it's perfect! I just really hope it stays like this for the weekend, that would be fabulous, not having to bundle up all weekend. I'm really excited to go home for thanksgiving and see all my friends! The rest of this post is going to be about, hmm, post its. Seriously, how great are they. They come in bright, cute, attention-grabbing colors, and they stick to anything and everything! They remind you of things, help you leave cute notes, and even entertain you when they come in that like accordion style. Okay so thats all I have about post-its, how about, my car! When I got my license my dad got a new suv and I got his volvo, I learned how to drive in it and that's pretty much the only car I ever drive. Its been on shady streets in downtown clifton, backed into a cement wall, been rained on when I left the windows down, happily taken all the beads and other things I hang in it, I could go on and on but it's just always been there for me. I know its dumb to become that attached to inanimate objects, but I seriously love my car. When I went home this weekend my parents said they were selling it and getting something else, and I mean I should be happy. They're selling the old car and getting something newer and better, but I really, really would rather just keep the volvo. It will be missed!

Blog 47 - a quotation, weather, and texting.

So i'm still up because i'm working on my chemistry lab. My friends halloween oreo's are making it a little bit better. They're so cute, they have orange cream and different little halloween shapes on them like ghosts and stuff. So today I was creepin' on my friends facebook and someone's status was "we always ignore the ones that adore us and adore the ones that ignore us." So I was thinking about that, and it really is true in a lot of cases. When people care/love us, sometimes we take it for granted and go after someone who doesn't seem to return our adoration. I guess maybe that's immature but I think it happens sometimes, like I feel like I do that a lot but maybe i'm just immature. Anyways, I thought that was sad. Then I ate some nutella and watched tv and stopped thinking about it. Hmm, what else happened today. Well, i'm really glad we have thursday off, its finally a break from endless things to do all the time. It was beautiful outside today! I was not wearing a jacket and boots and it felt great. When I was watching House today, one of the commercials was about the news and it showed a girl that had developed a thumb pain because she texted so much, she said it "hurts to text." I laughed for a little while, but that was mean because she's in pain, its also hypocritical because I text a lot too. It was just funny because everyone could totally see this coming, some kind of hand issue because of texting, and soon its going to become a really big deal. What else, i'm really excited my birthday's in exactly 2 weeks, i'll finally be 18, yay! Umm yah thats all, i'm going to go back to my chemistry lab now!

Blog 46 - hello.

So, me and my roomates watch a lot of disney channel, and a lot of wizards of waverly place, haha. I love that show! Seriously, how awesome would it be to be a wizard. You could poof yourself A's and money, and all you would really want to do is have fun, and learn. Sometimes I think about how schools are set up, like, especially if you want to go to grad school, you have to maintain a good GPA. So, you want a 4.0, but people that want to go to grad school usually like to learn, so you want to take those interesting upper level classes. Since you need a good GPA, i feel like people give up taking challenging courses. It's just not fair, college is kind of hindering you from learning. If I didn't have a GPA to worry about, I would probabbly continue the honors chemistry series. But no, I need good grades for med school! So, I'm going to drop to regular chemistry and take a different honors course. Chemistry is really interesting to me though, and its sad that I can't take it anymore, it just doesn't seem right how that works out. I feel like I need to go to school and take average-ish classes and get good grades and then, i dont know, find a tutor or something outside of school to learn the stuff that i'm missing out on in 202H. Mark Twain is so right, he said "Never let formal education get in the way of your learning." Agreed, Mr. Twain. Formal education is getting in the way of my, and probabbly many other people's, learning right now. Sad, but true. Yah, being a wizard and magically making A's and then getting to take any classes you want and just learn, that would be sweet.

Blog 45- Facebook Fan things :)

So sometimes when i'm on facebook I see the things you can become a fan of like "Saying "Yeah, i'm on my way" when youre still at home" or "waking up with unread texts that make you smile" I get excited because some of them are just things I didn't even realize so many other people agreed upon. Like, re-reading texts that make you smile, seriously, sometimes I feel seriously lame when I do that, it makes me feel a little better to know that like more than 600,000 other people do it enough to be a fan of it on facebook, haha. And like, the one about people that think texts are too serious without a haha or an lol. I feel like it gets really annoying but whenever i'm texting I really cant send something without one of those two and not wonder if the person reading it thinks i'm mad, because I just always do it. I might start, because really, it probabbly gets annoying reading extra lol's and haha's for no reason except the comfort of knowing i'm not mad, i think they would already know if i was mad. anyways, hmm theres another one that was like i was waiting for a reply and then i realized i didn't even send the last text. Hahahhaa, i love that one. I do it so much, i pick up my phone, unlock it, and see an un-sent text after like a good ten minutes, its fabulous. So all of those were text themed, i feel like a phone addict, i'll throw in a non-phone one. Hmm, oh! One was, certain songs remind me of certain people. It's so so true, sometimes it makes no sense at all, the lyrics and the person have no connection, it just happens haha. 

Blog 44 - Commonplace

So I’m rewriting the intro for my paper, but I don’t really get what kind of introduction she’s looking for. Like, an artsy, reel you in kind of intro? Or just something quick and then get straight to the information that needs to be in the paper. So my original title was Mommy, or Sissy? And I meant sissy as in like sister sissy, but it could get confused for like the other definition of sissy, so I changed it to: Mother, or Big Sister? I kind of liked the first name better, but I guess it can be misunderstood.

His mom stops by at home and shoves a granola bar down her throat as she leaves to her second job, the night shift at the clothing store down town. Max, the eldest, is feeding some baby food to his younger brother Tyler as he reads his history book that’s open on the table.

            Her mom’s flight from Boston is landing in about two hours, and her father has been paged to get his butt to the ER, once again. Liz is at home, with her two year old brother and their Nanny. After having grown up with a busy mother and a father finishing his residency, she feels obliged to pay attention to her younger brother. She wants to give him the attention he never received.

            There are many, many different reasons and familiy set ups that cause an older child to raise their younger sibling. That’s pretty much my intro, I’m not sure where to go with it next.

Blog 43 - Being Healthy, and staying pescatarian?

So, for hmm, a little longer than 6 months, I had been pescatarian. A week ago, I started to eat meat again. I was seriously just getting so sick of going to get food with my friends, and having to search the menu's for the foods with little leaves by them, or something with just seafood, while I watched my friends just pick anything that sounded yummy to them. I was just like, why am I even doing this, whatever, i'm gonna eat meat. So I started, and here's how its going. It was fun for two days, getting to eat grilled chicken and sausages and turkey subs again. Now, I just feel sick to my stomach thinking about how much meat i've been eating. It's sickening. After not eating meat for this long I just find it disgusting. It was seriously easy to be nutritious and be a pescatarian at home. Whole Foods was just a few minutes away, as well as yummy sushi. My mom knew I didn't eat meat so she made yummy fish all the time! Now, here, you can get salmon burgers and greasy panini's, and the vegetarian options. I mean they're all yummy, but that's all you can eat. So it sucked, but now i've realized that was so much better than the gross meat eating feeling I have now, I just feel so sick. Definitely going back to veggies and fish. It's so much healthier. I really feel like i've gained weight since I started eating meat again, and it feels gross. I miss Whole Foods the most, healthy cookies and crackers, and yogurt brownies, I kinda wanna go home and go grocery shopping haha.  Anyways, thats all, goodbye chicken all over again!

Blog 42 - Career vs. Children.

So yesterday, instead of studying for my chemistry 201H quiz, I decided to have a ridiculously long conversation with they guys on the 8th floor about life. Ever since I can remember, i've wanted to be a doctor. I've always wanted to be a pediatrician, to go to Sri Lanka after I finish my studies and volunteer a year or two, and practice medicine for my life. This had always seemed totally okay, I mean you know, go to school, get your degree, then have kids and volunteer. Then, we sat down and thought about it. My undergrad is four years, then medical school is 4 years, and then your residency is a minimum of 3 years. If i'm 17 right now, i'll be done with ALL of that when i'm 28, and then i have to find a job, and if I want to specialize that'll take even longer. When does the whole falling in love, getting married, having kids and volunteering thing happen? At the rate the world is going now, doctors will be working ridiculous hours because of the deficiency of doctors right now. Do I even have time to look after children if I have children? Am I thinking too hard about things I don't need to think about too soon? Sometimes I think it's ridiculous that i'm thinking about this right now but then i'm like, but really its important. I REALLY want to be a doctor, but I REALLY want children too. Do you have to choose? Do I need to be content with being a pediatrician and seeing kids all day rather than having my own children? maybe having a dog to make up for it? I don't know, maybe i'm thinking too hard about this right now. I guess i'll just see how things go, and chill out for now.

Blog 41 - Oh warm weather.

I seriously miss the warm weather. I mean, I was born in Winnipeg so I love snow and all that fun stuff, I just miss being able to walk around in shorts and a tank and flip flops. I guess the fall/winter and summer have their upsides and downsides. I mean, now that its cold you can wear sweats all the time and not be overheated. And it's time for hot chocolate and sledding! Building snowmen and all that fun stuff. Christmas of course, and black friday! But of course you have to bundle up all the time, and its going to be a pain walking to classes and to friends houses through all of the snow. I think i'm going to order a pair of snow boots, like actual-not just warm and fuzzy-water repellant snow boots. But yah, I'm pretty excited for the holidays though, and going home, and i'm going to work over break so I get to see everyone from work, yay! My friend has a car so yesterday we drove to Krogers, and it felt really nice to be in a normal grocery store again for once. I really miss just getting in your car and driving to the grocery store when you want cookies or some milk. Thats what else is going to suck in a few weeks: walking to get food and groceries. Honestly, if it's like 20 degrees outside I don't know if i'm going to want to walk all the way anywhere to actually get food. I might sacrifice a yummy dinner for staying warm. Guess I better start loading up on lean cuisines and mac and cheese. I might go out of my way to get milk though, you need milk for everything. I never realized how awesome fridges at home are until now, you open it and theres always food! Here, you have to trek through the cold to get milk to put in the fridge. Okay i'm done whining about cold weather, see you later!

Blog 39 - paranormal activity 2 !

So I watched Paranormal Activity 2, like half an hour ago. It was pretty scary, I just think like it wasn't super scary because it's not like based off of a true story. It would be extremely different if any part of that was actually based on a true occurrence. But some of that stuff is possible i guess, since the Haunting in Connecticut was based off of a true story and is very similar. And, the exorcism of emily rose. That's scary stuff. What i really want to know is if ouiji boards are real. I mean, like i've heard people's stories about how they've used ouiji boards and tried to do tumbler talking and they say it works, and stuff actually happens. But seriously, it sounds so out of this world, but I kind of believe it. I mean I guess its possible. I haven't actually seen the first one so i'm watching that right now with my roomies, and its already starting to connect to the second one. It makes more sense now. The movie that i thought was really scary was the exorcism of emily rose, that was based off of a true story and its terrifying. So its halloween, and i think i've eaten more candy today than i have all year. Not really but seriously, i've eaten so much candy. Gym for sure tomorrow! The weekend has been super fun, i love halloween. I just love dressing up, its so much fun! When our costumes first came in me and one of my roomates put them on and we seriously could have worn them the whole day, I really didn't want to take it off. Childish, i know, but i love halloween!

Blog 37 - ANYTHING!

So we can blog about anything today. I think i'll blog about esmeralda because thats who I am for halloween. Did you know Esmeralda isn't actually a gypsy, she was actually born as an illegitimate child to a lady and a man, and the lady was shunned so Esmeralda, born Agnes, brought her joy. Then, all of a sudden gypsies captured her and took her away. In her place, they left the hunchback, quazimodo. This isn't in line with the Disney version but it is one version. So, she is captured by gypsies and raised as a gypsy. Then in the disney version she has her goat and her tambourine, and she becomes friends with the hunchback and the hunchback falls in love with her, but she actually ends up with prince charming who sweeps her off her feet towards the end of the movie. I think it would be fun to have a goat to go with my costume. Well, not a real goat but a stuffed goat would be cute. I would probabbly lose it but it would be fun while it lasted. In math today the guys said I should go to a petting zoo and find a goat, yah very good idea. Or a tambourine, I think it would be fun to have a tambourine. I really wish I could have found a jasmine costume, I think that would have been more fun. Jasmine is pretty much my favorite disney princess. We were so obsessed with that song that my friend burned it onto a CD that we played in the car. It was great, I seriously love that song so much. Anyways, thats all. I love halloween! Talk to ya later.

Blog 36 - Personal and Hypthetical

My topic is about how sometimes when both parents are busy, or if a child is raised by a single parents, they oftentimes bring themselves up. They become very independent because they raise themselves. Then, after they go through raising themselves, if they have a younger sibling, they raise the sibling too. After the hardship they had gone through they feel it is their duty to help their sibling. A personal anecdote to this is that when I was younger, in like 6th grade, one of my friends was a lot like this. She lived down the street from me, and she was pretty much my best friend at the time. Her mom and dad both worked at GE and worked full hours, whereas my mom worked shorter hours and came home around the time we were back from school. She was extremely independent which wasn't surprising because her parents had been like this for a long time. Then, she had her younger brother and she practically brought him up. She picked him up from his bus, made sure he ate, tutored him, took him places, she did everything for him and I would always remember my mother being like, if only you did half that stuff for your younger sister. Me and my sister were just like, most of the time friends who fought sometimes, there was no responsibility I ever had for my sister. So it was always weird to me. A hypothetical situation would be if I was in that position. Lets say I had parents that worked full time, and I had two younger siblings. I can't even fathom what my life would be like. I already felt like I had little time in highschool, now throw in two kids I have responsibility for, that would be unimaginable.

Blog 35 - Commonplace article

Today I read an article on commonplace about obesity being rampant, and definitely being a avoidable cause of death. You hear about obesity being on the rise constantly, enough that popular channels often play the commercial about getting an hour of activity every day. Its just sad how much food has changed. Its morphed to get worse and worse with high fructose corn syrup, and the worst, trans fat. Its not just fat, its killer fat. It clogs your arteries, i'm pretty sure it should be outlawed. Its not okay for your body by and means but its found even in the break and bake pillsbury cookies. I feel like obesity isn't all the fault of the obese person. Oftentimes children don't have good role models and so fall into obesity. Parents who are often not present don't watch the nutrition on their child, and so let them fall into a habit of going out and getting food constantly. Never getting to eat healthy home cooked meals, the kids know no better and end up eating badly. Then when they begin to gain weight, the parents worry. It's too late then, losing weight its a lot harder than gaining it, and cutting down your food intake by 99% isn't going to help you lose weight fast. I thought it was really interesting that the article pointed out that the CDC is spending 150 billion dollars just on premature diseases caused by obesity. We're paying for the fact that we aren't eating healthy and living healthy lifestyles! I thought it was a very interesting article.

Blog 34 - Commonplace Activity

So today we continuously just wrote topics that came to head for our commonplace papers. I wrote continuously and ended up with a two and a half page list of 44 different topics. I started to read over them again and I really liked a lot of them, and now i'm having a hard time picking my favorite one. My last one was the one that caught my attention first. It was: Often there are teenagers who, noticing that their parents are often not around, become a "parent" to their younger sibling. They, as a teen who often had no parents around, grew up very independently and now feel the need to baby their younger sibling after what they went through to raise themselves. I liked this topic, but I also had one that was: With the parents that are rarely around, how do the relationships between a rich parent and their child differ from a lower-income parent and their child. Though both parents are rarely present whether working a dead end minimum wage job, or always off on business trips, does the socioeconomic states of these families affect their relationships? I'm probabbly going to use the one about the independent child bringing up the sibling. I just don't see how parents are okay with that, putting such a big responsibility on their child. And how that affects the relationship between the eldest child and the parents. If not that I might write a satire that says parents shouldn't even bother talking to their teens, that the relationship is best when no one talks or communicates. So its between these three, but most likely the first one.

Blog 33 - chem 201H is like death in class form.

So, i've blogged about 201H before, but i'm gonna have to do it again. And it will be whiney so sorry ahead of time. Today, I took a midterm that I've been studying for since last Sunday. Yes, pretty much an entire week, minus 2 days of the weekend. I've been studying a couple hours every day, thats a lot of total hours. Never in my life have I ever studied close to that many hours for anything, at all, ever. Usually I study, meaning look at stuff and ya know, kinda study, the night before. There may have been one test I ever studied for, for more that one night, but thats probabbly it. So yah, this was a lot of studying. I thought about the importance of the midterm, being an honors molecular genetics major, honors chemistry is kind of important, especially since I want to go to medical school. Having studied everything and looked over everything, I went into the midterm fairly confidently, and walked out dumbfounded. I really, seriously think that was the hardest test I have ever taken in my entire life. I have never studied this hard for a test and then felt like I completely failed it. I feel like this is a big transition in my life, I feel like i've hit a learning block in my life, I don't even know how to react to the test. I walked out speechless, I don't know how to feel. If I could have anything in the world right now it would be to go back to that last friday we had to drop a class without a W, and I would drop this class. It's a physical chemistry course, and i'm a visual, right here, step by step, organized information and answers kind of learner. This is all theoretical, unvisualizable, conceptual stuff that I now feel like i'll never be able to understand. I just don't know what to do about this class anymore.

Blog 32 - ENFP (continued)

I’ve been thinking about pediatrics, specifically becoming a pediatric internist, so just being the classic pediatrician that works at a hospital, or maybe a private practice and sees kids all day. I know everyone always says, hey you’ll get sick of them, they cry, have icky cuts and runny noses and they’ll tell you their tummy hurts and ear itches expect you to diagnose their illness from that…and they go on and on. But from babysitting, doing physics fest for AP Physics, and after taking the personality test, I feel like I can have fun working with children for long periods of time.

I love bio, we watched a video about epigenetics and it really caught my attention. Chem is pretty fun too, I HATE PHYSICS. And then we took the tests and surveys and it definitely told me research in a lab for long hours wouldn’t cut it for lifelong satisfaction job-wise. Probably not even for a few years. And working in a lab never really sounded fun. So even though I love epigenetics, it may have to just be a spread out research project, because I think I really was right about pediatrics.

This personality test was pretty interesting. I have brown parents and so every time I mention health care people mumble, or atleast think, her parents are probably making her. Whenever I talk to them they always tell me to do what makes me happy, and be sure not to look at salaries. Since I’ve wanted to go into medicine, which came after my year or so of interest in biomedical engineering (that interest ended after AP Physics and other little things), I’ve always been a little worried that somehow my parents had something to do with it, even though they’ve never really said anything. Maybe not even that, but just the stereotype that all Indian/Sri Lankan’s go into the medical field or engineering has bothered me because though a lot of people do get pushed in, many don’t. After thinking about it I truly believe thats what I really want to do, only because I want to do it. I feel like there are no ulterior influences in this decision.

Blog 31 - ENFP.

So today I took one of those 4 letter personality tests and it turns out that i'm an ENFP.

After I took the test and everyone was talking about their four letter personalities, I said hey, I’m an ENFP. And everyone was like oh yeah? What a total and complete surprise,  I never ever would have guessed…fairly sarcastically. So, I mean I guess it makes sense. I knew I was more optimistic than pessimistic, and I hated and had low analytical thinking abilities, but I wasn’t totally sure if I was an E or I, and, actually I wasn’t really sure about any of the letters. The test really cleared up what an introvert and an extrovert were for me. Now I get why my friends easily dismissed this, since they already knew it. I really am an extrovert. I’m the one that cries in front of everyone and tells everyone what I’m feeling, no matter how long I’ve known them. I can tell anyone anything that’s going on with my life easily, and I love talking about feelings. I really have nothing I ever hide, or don’t talk about.

And the other letters made sense later too, considering the things I think about when I’m on the treadmill or in the car. And, wow, being flaky? I know that’s just one thing and pointing that out to prove I’m an ENFP would be like saying hey, I sneezed, I probably have mono. But wow, that fits me completely. I’m flaky and fickle about everything; things, purchases, ideas, relationships, etc.

It was cool to see a paragraph on a website able to pinpoint my traits. Flaky is just one, there were so many others that fit perfectly.

They like to be admired by other people, they are easily intrigued and distracted,  distracted by new acquaintances often forgetting old ones; so dead on.

So now that I kind of had more confidence in my view of my personality, I couldn’t decide if my career decision was right.

Blog 29 - My paper.

So I have the outline for my paper and everything down. I know how I want my paper to go, I know what I want to be on it and how I want it to flow, but what I dont understand how to write is the intro. I just don't know how I want the introduction worded yet. I'm usually good at introductions, its the only part of a paper I have done for a while, but in this case I can't do the introduction. This paper is a lot different from the papers I usually write. So this is what I have so far for my paper, introduction-wise:

Buffy is a sixteen years old. She is the typical teenage girl: she is a cheerleader, she has looks on her side, and she is quite outgoing. She has two great best friends, she does average in school, and of course she just wants to fit in and be loved.

Sadly, Buffy can’t easily fit in, or embrace her extroverted characteristics and have fun with her friends often. She is the chosen one: A vampire slayer. The citizens of her city are at risk of death unless Buffy is constantly training, learning, and patrolling for vampires and other deadly creatures.

I know I need to add more to that to make it an introduction, like, i'm not done writing it yet, but I really don't know how I want to introduce my paper: how I want it to be opened. I also don't know how much description I should really put into my introduction without overdoing it and making it unnecessary and overly wordy.

Blog 28 - Nutella.

College has seriously shown me how truly amazing Nutella is. So at home, I would get one of the little jars of Nutella every once in a while, and make the occasional peanut butter and nutella sandwich. It would sit around in the pantry forever, and rarely get used. Then college came around, and my mom decided to stick a jar of nutella in with all the other munchies she had bought. I really wasn't like a nutella fiend or anything but I guess she thought it was healthy, so she got me a jar. So I had it, and sadly I had no bread, and I guess the fact that I thought I couldn't eat it made me want it more. So me and my roomies went grocery shopping and got bread, we made peanut butter and nutella sandwhiches, and I rediscovered the amazing-ness of Nutella. So after we ran out of bread, my roomate was like Hey! try it with wheat thins, it tastes so good. I try it, and yes, it was delish. From there we started dipping ritz crackers into the jar, after I ran out of ritz crackers we started to use plain Sunchips. EVERYTHING goes with Nutella, its just an amazing jar of goodness. The next time my parents came up to see me I had a long list of stuff for them to bring up, including nutella. I now have one of the giant costco jars of nutella and i'm almost out of that. It's really sad that CVS doesn't have nutella. Like, of all things not to have, Nutella? Really? It goes with anything and everything, you can even just eat it out of the jar. Its like peanut butter but better. Being in college has made me realize how amazing Nutella really is.

Blog 27 - HALLOWEEN IS SO SOON !

So, I know there really is more than a week for Halloween but I'M SO FREAKING EXCITED because I finally ordered my costume, and decided what I'm going to be! So now i'm all set and I just have to wait for it to get here, and wait for Halloween to come around. Halloween is a great holiday. You dress up, party, eat lots of candy, its just wonderful. It's like everyones excuse to go all out and be their favorite characters, and of course every girls excuse to look totally slutty because its halloween and it's just okay. We're all pretty excited. Me and my roomies put up a spiderweb and a spider on our door, we have pumpkin lights, AND a little jack o lantern full of candy. Yes, we're awesome and we love Halloween. Another thing i'm seriously excited for is next quarter! Winter quarter will be great. I have 3 classes, that's it. And then, on tuesdays and thursdays I don't even start until 12:30, which is pretty normal but i didn't have that luxury first quarter so now it's super exciting. And of course, i'll be done with Chem 201H. And instead of Chem, i'll take Bio, and french! I'm seriously just waiting for next quarter. Hmm what else, I got lots of my ringtones back, I made a bunch of them today and it's just great. I'm really just so happy I got the schedual I wanted, it worked out, and hopefully I don't try swapping classes because my scheduals perfect right now.

Blog 26 !

Today I was watching the Eminem video again, the one where he's on letterman and he has his 10 pieces of advice for kids. I seriously love Eminem. Like, not only is he a beyond amazing rapper, he's hilarious and super passionate when he raps. So tomorrow I start scheduling, and I still don't know what classes I want to take. 201H, see last blog, is super hard, so I decided heck no for 202H. AND THEN someone told me 202H is a lot easier, so after you go through hell, the next quarter is nicer. Well, I'm pre-med and I want to take Bio 115H, and i'm definitely not taking honors chemistry at the same time, no matter how easy people say it is. So, I just wasted my time killing myself over 201H this quarter? So should I just hold off on Bio and take chemistry right now? Haha, yah no one can really answer these questions except me, i'm just ranting right now. But really, whats more important? and then I can't just take two classes, so should I take Psych 100H or something? I seriously hate scheduling so much, I just wish it was Friday. Friday's and Saturday's are just amazing days, and Wednesday afternoons are pretty cool too because you've finally gotten through half the week. But ranking best days of the week would definitely go Friday, Saturday, then Wednesday.  I mean maybe Sunday, but Wednesday's closer to Friday, so I think Wednesday wins. Sunday's just sad, its the end of the weekend and back to the school week. Sunday's just kinda suck.

Blog 25 :)

Today was lovely, I came back to school with 5 times the stuff I left with, and then studied for chem until 3am. PF changs in the middle was nice, but seriously, chem until 3 am. And this isn't like distracted, facebook a little bit and other things study, this is hardcore study. Today is like a new day, never in my life have I ever studied for that many hours straight, for anything. Ever. I usually don't even study, but this, this is ridiculous. Chem 201H is a deathly class, unless you love chem, and physics (I love chem but I hate physics so this is death) don't take it. I learned something about my learning method today. In grade school they would always ask what kind of a learner you are, visual or whatever. And then, how like structured and organized the things you learn need to be for you. I realized i'm one of those people that needs to be able to visualize stuff, and know stuff building from the extreme basic to completely understand it. Neither of these really applies to 201H. Its very theoretical stuff that kind of just skips over the basics, that you can't really visualize because its been altered dimension-wise so you can understand it? I don't know if that made any sense, but pretty much, my learning style is the opposite of the class. Fabulous. Hmm but I really do love chem when it isnt about quantum mechanics and the deBroglie's equations. I love inorganic chemistry,  but this PChem stuff is just not fun. I'm learning a lot, but i don't know if i want to be learning this. I'm definitely thinking very hard about not taking 202H, but we'll see I guess. If you've read this far in this blog that's awesome :) thanks for listening to my ramble!

Blog 24

So this day has been pretty fabulous. I got a working phone! This is my first weekend home, and i've realized theres a lot of things you appreciate a lotttt more after a couple weeks of college. First, having a big, comfy bed that you dont have to climb a cramped ladder to get into. Being able to drive. I've missed my car like no other. It's so nice to just think, hey umm I want to go shopping. Hey! I have my car, I can get in and drive to the mall! Or, hmm, I kinda want a bag of raisinets. Hey, i'll just drive over to Krogers and pick one up. No walking or bussing involved. Oh, then theres doing dishes. Its really nice getting your dishes washed for you in a dishwasher vs scrubing at them in a tiny sink at school. But whatever, college is still fabulous, despite those things. hmm what else. I feel like oatmeal is extremely underappreciated. Its one of those, eww really? kinda foods. People kind of just dismiss it, and eat it strictly for health purposes most of the time, but seriously? I like oatmeal. Well not regular oatmeal, just the maple brown sugar kind. Regular oatmeal is kind of gross, but maple brown sugar? Delicious. It smells delicious, and tastes good, and its great for you! Kinda like, grapes! Theyre delicious and healthy. You could eat them all day, like instead of grabbing in a bowl and downing chips, get some grapes. Or some baby carrots! My old highschool has a baby carrot vending machine? and it was on SNL? ridiculous, but good, thats super healthy. But yah thats all, ttyl!

Blog 23 - ANYTHING?

Wow, i'm like extremely freaking excited that I can just talk about anything, for 250 words. ANYTHING. No Buffy, yay! Well, I'm just going to ramble about whatever comes to mind. Today, instead of doing homework, I decided to go to Easton with my friends and buy stuff. We all had the same thing in mind, another pair of yoga pants. Victoria's secret yoga pants are not only super cute, each with their own personalities. Whether it be the retro floral ones, bedazzled glam ones, or cheetah print ones, they're extremely comfy. Diamonds? Whatever, I mean diamonds are great, but a girls like, hmm, best friend number two? should be yoga pants. You know what else is a girls bff? Their cell phone. Monday I broke my cell phone, at like 5am I get a text and instead of grasping my phone I push it off my lofted bed to its death on the cold hard floor. I've done this multiple times, actually, but this time it decided it was done with my torture. I woke up, and was definitely ready to cry on the spot. Not only was my phone gone, so was the alarm I set for my 8:30 lab. Should I just stay up till then and pass out at my lab or set a wimpy alarm i'll probably sleep through on my iPod? It was just a terrible morning. But anyways, people take their phones for granted, but seriously, if you're reading this right now, look at your lovely phone that is in one piece and smile that you have it. All your contacts, pictures and fabulous ringtones all in one lovely phone! You really don't realize what you have until its gone :)

Blog 22 - Thesis exercise

Today in class we worked on our thesis, how to write it and perfect it and support it. A thesis is an argument, not just a statement, so we worked on making sure our theses were arguments and not just statements or observations, that our theses were arguable. We also learned how to support it with information, from the show and real world. The thesis I wrote is: The show Buffy the Vampire shows the metaphor of the relationship between teens and their parents. Buffy the Vampire is an average teenager, she goes to highschool, wants to have friends and be liked, and hides things from her mother. For most teens, their escapades to frat houses and house parties are these secrets, on the other hand, Buffy's big secret is that she is a vampire slayer. This is her secret vs. the typical high schooler's secrets. Buffy's relationship with her parents is strained, they cannot connect to her as well as they think they should be able too, they are lied to by her, they feel distant; these are the typical charecteristics of a teen-parent relationship. Typical teens have all of these problems, they're just not all vampire slayers though. For example one night Buffy skips the high school dance and her mother is sad about it, and probabbly cannot understand why she does this. This is similar to the real life situation of rebellious highschoolers who skip their dances. Or, when her father drops her off back at home and shows that he compensated for his inability to connect to her by buying her lots of material things. These and many other reasons are why the parent/teen relationship is like Buffy and her parents relationship.

Blog 21 - Quote Integration

We did quote integration in class, and this is another example of one of the paragraphs I integrated a quotation into. This paragraph talks about the insecurity teenagers have to feel because of peers who put them down or do other various unthoughtful things: Teens problems can be caused by a wide array of things: "Peer pressure, friendship, loneliness, dating, abusive boyfriends, betrayal, the generation gap, sex, drugs, rock 'n' roll" are a few of the many causes of teen issues (Rosen 1). In the episode “Halloween,” Cordelia is in the bathroom with Buffy and Willow, and as she puts on another coat of lipstick and powder she talks down to Buffy and her looks. It makes Buffy extremely conscious about her, and her chances with the boy Angel who Cordelia is now trying to steal. Teenagers are often self-conscious for many reasons. They are given labels, often unfavorable labels, which can make them more self conscious. Buffy is naturally a beautiful girl, but with slaying vampires she doesn’t have much time to be manicured from head to toe. So despite her looks, she is conscious, only because of the few words Cordelia says. This is metaphorically similar to the many reasons teenagers are self conscious about their appearance. When we worked on quotation integration we focused on making sure we didn't put the quotation at the beginning or end of a paragraph. We also talked about how at the end of the sentence we need to put in a parenthetical citation, with the author and the page number.

Blog 20 - Quote Integration

We did an exercise in class where we learned to integrate quotes into paragraphs, but in a scholarly way, aka not letting the quote introduce or end a paragraph. My paper is largely about how Buffy is representative of adolesence and the lives of teens, and their relationships with their parents. This was a paragraph with one of my quotes: In the episode called Inca Mummy Girl Buffy decides not to go to the high school dance that everyone is going to. This often happens in high school, and usually teens do not tell their parents why they don’t want to attend a dance. They muddle it up and spend the night sulking in their room, or they’re in a rebellious stage where high school dances seem lame. In Buffy’s case she is skipping out on the dance because she has more important slaying matters to deal with, yet another metaphor to the teenager parent disconnect. Parents don’t always understand why their children have to fall into a label of jock, punk, prom queen or such. Teens see it as important, and its true that “what happens in those years does matter almost as much as it seems to at the time.” Teens realize it matters at the time and parents dismiss it as something teens will grow out of. Buffy portrays this living of the label very well with her character. She is labeled as an pretty outcast and that's what she is, someone who is noticed but avoided, and she'll continue to be affected by her label, she continues to be a slayer.

Blog 19 - Article

This is the article I read for this blog: http://www.prospect.org/cs/articles?article=can_buffys_brilliance_last
The article agrees that Buffy is much different than other classic high school setting shows. It considers it a good successor to Catcher in the Rye. Saying that is saying a lot. I really hope that doesn't offend JD Salinger. Anyways, it's saying that this show really does have a deeper meaning than the seemingly superficial monster killing and typical high school drama. It also talks about the portrayal of Buffy. She is seemingly a typical cheerleader with a funny name, but, as the article says, she has all the traits every girl wants. Teenage girls want to feel needed, like they have a purpose, a talent that is useful in the world. Then they feel that they are significant, and so feel important, and more confident. The article also argues that Buffy the Vampire tries to play down sex. By showing that kisses in the show are usually kisses of death, it makes kissing look bad. Then, Buffy carrying the motto, don't do it if it doesn't feel good promotes the prevention of teens experimenting before they really want to do anything. It also talked about the fact that it showed that, since there were many male vampires, like in the episode called reptile boy, if a girl lets her guard down for a little while, she could end up dying via vampire bite, which is metaphorical to bad decisions on the part of teenagers. The article also talked for a little bit about where the show goes towards the final seasons, which I haven't watched any of yet, and it seems to be going downhill. The author worries that it will have a fate like many other series which end up failing towards the end.

Blog 18 - Article

The article I used: http://articles.latimes.com/2003/may/20/entertainment/et-rosen20
This article really helped me, it supported my thesis a lot. It supported the fact that its a large metaphor of the lives of teenagers. I was talking about the perils of teenagers that are represented in this show, their insecurity caused by those around them, like when cordelia down-talked Buffy in the bathroom. Or even when Willow is shadowed fairly often by Buffy. Or the parental issues that teenagers run into because of helicopter parents, or the inability to relate to them; the rift between teenagers and their parents. It spoke of the view that  her battling of "the demons" was much like a teenagers daily battles with classic teen issues such as drugs, sex, and others. The article also talked about how Buffy filled the void of female hero's. Most super heroes are male: Spiderman, Batman, man, man, man. Buffy, for a change, is a girl, a blonde cheerleader who sacrifices her social life to save the world daily. This is much of a change from a man that lets spiderwebs out of his wrist. It also spoke about the wide variety of age groups who watch the show. People ranging from teenagers, to age thirty, even to age sixty truly enjoy watching the show. It attracts a wide variety of viewers. It talked about how popular the show became among teens, enough for a frat's drinking game to be based off of visible bra straps, which was something Buffy was often spotted with. He made the show sad, but very funny at the same time.

Buffy Article 1 - A religious approach

Article I read: http://www.christianitytoday.com/ct/2002/septemberweb-only/9-16-31.0.html
This article took a Christian view on the show, and it was torn. An "evangelical church father" wanted to watch it, he actually liked the show and promoted it. He does, of course watch it secretly though. What evangelical father wants people to know that they watch a show about a pretty teenage vampire slayer? Right, but he does have a guilty liking for the show. Though, as they say, it isn't as popular as many very mainstream shows, it is fairly popular. People bought stuff that was affiliated with the show. What was interesting about this article is when they talked about the number of teens and twenty year olds that enjoy watching the show. They talk about the popularity of the show among that age group. It makes a lot of sense though. The show is very relatable to teens since Buffy has the angst with her parents, or atleast seemingly since most of it is because of her slaying occupation, but other than that she does deal with many classic teenage issues. She is self conscious because of comments from people like cordelia, and she wants to have fun and have a normal social life. Of course, as we can all see from the Twilight and Vampire Diaries hype, the idea of vampires and mythical creatures is very eye catching to teens. Of course, the general christian view of the show is very low, they strongly dissaprove of the watching of the show which poses questions. Though the show may be about unreal, terrible creatures, it always has good overall messages in the shows. Like knowing who your real friends are, and helping one another.

I decided to do my paper on the Halloween episode of Buffy the Vampire, and I have a couple ideas about what I want to do my focus on. I considered Buffy and Angel, and make a thesis about them. They have a lot of tension between them and they finally want to start dating and its just dangerous. There are so many problems that come with complicated relationships like this. Their lives are in danger when they are dating, but I guess its good because he cares more than enough about her and she is very attracted to him too. The next best option would be Xander but she is very into Angel. Their relationship is kind of a necessary but risky relationship. I guess the paper could also be on like, the perils and trials of love. They seem to be perfect for one another, theres the quirky exciting girl and the very laid back calm guy. Of course, since things seem great, their ability to actually become a couple has to be thwarted and ruined all the time, they can't just be a happy couple. Other than that I could write about the common theme of how things aren't always what they seem. Every episode they are duped by a person, or in this one, costumes. They never really stop getting confused by other people that they don't know. Lastly, I could also write about Giles. He goes with the lesson that sometimes the people you cannot stand the most are the ones that end up saving you and know whats best for you. He knows what she's missing out on in her teen years but he knows how to save her life and make sure she does what she's meant to do for the world.

Buffy, Halloween !

At last, Buffy and Angel are dating! They finally agree to date after overcoming their tension about how dangerous a relationship could be, they finally agree with their impulse feelings. But of course, this is much to good to be true. How could everything just work out? Buffy gets held up at the pumpkin patch by a vampire, and Cordelia gets to Angel! Things can just never be perfect, like, everything cannot just be going well. So she continues to hit on Angel and tell off Buffy, little does she know Buffy and Angel's history. Cordelia once again makes a fool of herself, she does this a lot. Like the last episode, she gets them into a vampire/creature frat, and then believes that laughing loudly and obnoxiously will get her boys. Buffy is bothered by the crappy first date with Angel, and wants to find a way to surely win him over. She finds a very cute costume, as an 18th century noble woman hoping that will get him and then they find that the costumes are enchanted! They become the costumes that they are wearing. The relationship between her and Angel is very stressed, every force of nature continuously goes against them being together, but they find Ethan and the spell is reversed. They finally kiss at the end and so we know that they have finally made it. Angel reassures Buffy that women in the past were dull and boring and he really is looking for something fun and thrilling/exciting, and they kiss and we finally see their beginning together.

Buffy and Reptile Boy?

They start off with watching a hindi movie, everyones pretty content, Buffy the most, since there's nothing to be killed and they can just have a lazy evening. And then it cuts to a girl outrunning many hooded guys; Buffy spoke too soon. The TV was showing a lady in love singing into her phone, I wonder if that has anything to do with the episode? I'm starting to really see how bitter Buffy could be if she wanted to. She is gorgeous and smart and funny and could have an amazing time in high school with her friends, and of course she cant because she has slaying to do. It really showed when she met the fraternity boy who was smart and genuinely interested in her, and of course she had to practice self defense and had to leave her conversation with him, and not go to the party she was invited to by him. She really is missing out a lot  with her high school social life. It is shown that Buffy is missing out on her social life with that encounter, but then we find out that the fraternity is very dark, because it shows a brother that is joining and it isn't very sunny or bright. They prey on high school girls, since they're usually oblivious and want to date college boys. There is a lot of tension between Buffy and Angel, and she really likes him, but he's extremely old and it kind of reminds me of a Twilight type thing. Xander really cares about Buffy and shows up to look after her, but i think the frat boy has it covered, until you see that he is under someone bigger, the leader of their frat? They serve a bigger person. She really does need Xander, because the frat boys leave them to doom. It teaches a lesson about true friends and dangerous strangers. Also Angel really does have strong feelings for Buffy's safety, he is very upset as soon as he knows Buffy is in danger. Of course, Buffy ends up at the party where the problem is. It's another lesson, lying always backfires. Angel seems to be coming around, a romance seems to be starting between them !